Commune unity

I love the word community. The simple idea of communing with unity is just enticing. Even in its messes and broken pieces community lies deep within my desires. It's hard though, building community. Familial community can often be the easiest to relate to and for the fortunate few it can offer real intimate relationships that are accepting, healthy and loving. Many community's require enrollment in certain groups, clubs, ideologies, or the like to gain acceptance. Religions also typically offer this, but often with a holistic commitment of the persons entirety not just a part. (Family can ask the same.) The hard thing I've encountered with community outside the familial circles is the time, commitment and trust that must be built in order to achieve intimate community.

I am on who attempts instant intimacy. Let's dive deep, throwing ourselves into the waters of relationship. If we don't know how to swim, well we may drown but at least we didn't live superficially in the wading pool. Honestly its worked fairly well. I can give a few examples of relationships I have built where in  a few short months I integrated myself into their life in such a way that one couldn't figure out how I got to be so close to them. Yet those same relationships didn't always end in the most loving of ways. Very often they ended with words being said that showed that the other truly didn't know who I was. Perhaps it was the morphing to be in their life that left it where my identity and who I was was forgotten even by me. That at the point where my values, hopes and dreams surfaced the community I had morphed into couldn't relate or understand. 

I have fought this obsessive battle many times since my adolescence. I joke that I stalk people - but honestly with the creation of social media keeping tabs on certain individuals has never become easier. While the desire for community is healthy and right the means into which one participates in community can decide whether it is a right thing. 

I lay my pride at the altar

crying out all it's pains

But when the music over

I pick it up all over again

My desires, obsessions,

Every thought in my head

runs over and over

with thoughts of me instead

No consideration,

No thought of you,

In my desperation

I might seek the truth

But in my limelight

I pretend to be someone else

Could You take all I am?

Forming me in Your lovely hands.

My desires and longings,

You know their deepest parts.

The whispers and shouting,

attempting to speak what I don't know.

Intimacy

community

All I see is Your hand in mine

Trinity

Unity

All I want is to be a part.

Strip away my facade,

give me strength to leave my pride

at the altar, at the altar....

And I will be 

made new

And I will be

a part of You

I rest, I rest, I rest in You

I will rest, I will rest, I will rest in Your truth

I will rest in the knowledge of Your Word

I will rest in the promise of Your Body

Community

I want to be intimate with you

Not for my own gain

But for the glory of His name

Hallelujah,

He is faithful, He is faithful, He is the faithful to the end

He is faithful, He is faithful, He is the faithful my Friend

Hallelujah I will never walk alone.

Hallelujah, Hallelujah I will never walk alone.

Amen.